It occurred to me tonight (During that crazy time after work/school where 4 hours worth of tasks, supper prep/consumption and quality time need to be packed into one hour. You know exactly what I mean. And those are just the beginning of the evening’s tasks!) that I have to let you in on some of Kelly's real secrets. Real. As in real life.
Our house is nowhere as clean as I'd prefer. It's messy in fact. Counters have been known to go days without being wiped. Toys are everywhere. It’s like walking through a minefield! Dishes don’t get done on a daily basis…. it’s more like on an as needed crisis basis… “We’re eating eggs tonight... we need to wash the egg pan before that happens!." My inner 'I can't really relax until everything in my environment is clean, organized and under control' had to retreat and surrender the day our first kiddo came home from the hospital. That crazy inner idealist had to run away with her tail between her legs at the sight of our house! Frankly I don't miss her... she was pretty uptight... and always on my ass. I'm sure Brian misses her even less than I do!
Another secret.. we have a few additional bills to pay than we'd prefer. But you know what else I've made a priority lately to let go? Fear. We are gonna be just fine. I know it. We made decisions in the past that we don't regret, like my going part-time for a couple years so I could adjust to a new baby and buying our house a year earlier than we financially should have because our just-right-for-us home came on the market earlier than we planned for. How could we pass on that?
Another secret? Sometimes story-time is cut short at night because it's way past little ones' bedtimes and sleep trumps reading. Barely.
Another secret? Bath times often get pushed back ‘just one more night’ because the craziness of the night isn't conducive to everyone making it through those alive! Haha, I'm exaggerating. Slightly.
I felt the urge to set things straight before I get too deep into this blog and ever, God-forbid, let anyone falsely believe I've got it all together. Or anything 'together' at all. I'd better seriously stop jotting this all down in order to go tend to the rambunctious (aka happy) kids playing, yelling and running around instead of eating their supper. Can I at least claim one victory for the evening before I close tho? Supper for them tonight is cut up pieces of organic chicken breast. Chicken breast that will fuel them so well that they’ll be even more rambunctious and energy-filled! Oh the irony. Our evening will seriously involve putting off baths ‘just one more night’ and scrambling to get the kids to bed... late ...with book time hopefully not cut too short. But I want you to know, also, that next to that chicken on their plate? Bribery Cheetos ;) Hey… I’m cool with ketchup to dip and Cheetos on the side, because our five year old little guy just gobbled up half of a chicken breast! That’s a win for me that overpowers the mountain of dishes (no joke) and unswept floors. It’s all about choices. It’s not humanly possible to do it all. I will happily decide to not feel embarrassed about our messy house, because I get to go lift weights twice a week, for instance. That keeps me more sane anyway. Choices... Priorities...
Also before I close… the title of my blog makes me giggle every time I think about it. Like I've got any great secrets…. or ‘better’ ways of doing things. Far from. We're all doing our best with what we know. But isn't it true, too, that when we know better we will do better? Let's all at least promise ourselves that much. That we will take it upon ourselves to learn what ‘better’ looks like for us and then commit to taking small steps toward these goals.
I am a wife, mom to two and teacher. I have a lot of things I'd like to go after in this lifetime!